Currently I am working through Step 4, "Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves." I will say this - Al Anon has saved my life.
What the program teaches may be common sense to people who don't have experience with addiction or didn't grow up in dysfunction or addiction.
The last few years have been an absolutely "Why are you still here? We have moved twice in the last two years, and may be moving again soon, all times due to him changing jobs.
Though my husband is an ACA (adult child of an alcoholic), and though the disease is in his other family members and extended family, and though he would occasionally tell me "I think I'm done drinking for a while", and though he has always drank as far as I can remember, I didn't truly know he had a problem until just last year.
It's not fair to me, my husband or anyone reading this looking for a glimmer of hope for their own recovery.
Here is the list of how things are a little different than what people may expect: He has not been arrested for a DUI (oh the times he's been pulled over and I hoped he would).
This blog is an online journal of sorts, cathartic in nature but also seeks to inform others by exposing my own personal daily ups and downs of living with active alcoholism. A functioning alcoholic is still an alcoholic - I know this.
And I know that some people resent this label, as if adding the word "functioning" somehow makes these alcoholics better than other alcoholics.
To those out there in my situation, I send you wishes of hope, strength, and love.
And I hope myself to be enlightened by the wisdom of your experiences.